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M’Kabu is My Superman

Jada Jae
Jan 16, 2023
4 min read

Updated: Feb 25, 2023

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First thought is to thank my BFF. For allowing me to be me and supporting my love of Winston Duke. She is the reason this Blog (and Vlog) came about.

Rewind a few weeks, I get a text from Best....

Ahhhh this makes my heart smile. Thanks Best. Taking my time, getting around to watching the interviews of Winston Duke. I came across the clip of Winston on The View.

During this interview I learn that Winston and Doctor Cindy lost their mother; Mama C recently.

My heart instantly swelled for them both.

"Losing a parent is a pain like no other. Especially if you had one who was a positive and loving influence within one's life".

Taking to my IG I hit them in their DM's sending love and prayers.

Some hours later, post a cycle induced pain recovery nap. I have a thought… I forgot to remember. Until confronted with Winston Dukes strength and professionalism, as he himself is grieving his Mother.

Reminder...

My Granny passed the day the first Black Panther Dropped World Wide. February 16, 2018 Unlike Winston, I was not strong enough to walk a Red Carpet one week after the passing of my Grandmother. It took me a bit longer to recover.

Rewind, I remember the night before She passed, I went to the hospice and sat with her until visiting hours were done.

By this time, my Gran wasn’t speaking any longer. I sat with her and held her hand. We watched Basketball, Some BET and Disney’s The Princess and The Frog.

I talked with her although she had stop responding a week prior. Someone said on some movie or TV show somewhere, “Talk to them even though they don’t respond, they can still hear you”. So I talked with my Grandmother.

I told her how proud I was of her. The doctor said my Granny Had Two Weeks. It was two weeks to the day, And Dorothy J Kyle was still with me.

So as I talked, during the movie, I explained to my Granny how excited I was to go watch this new movie called Black Panther. I told her, it looked like something she would be interested in as well.

I sat and held her hand. I wanted to cuddle up in the bed with her that night. I did not because at 6’2, I didn’t want to make her uncomfortable in that small hospice bed. So I held her hand. Kissed her good night when visiting hours were over. Told her I’d come by after the movie tomorrow to tell her how it was.

The next morning, I was up at 6AM simply crying my eyes out. Kept trying to emotionally get myself together to go to work at Tha Welfare. 8AM I’m supposed to clock in… Nope, I was still standing in my showers sobbing. 10AM I walk into work dressed in all Black. In anticipation of Opening Night Support of Black Panther.

10:03AM as a former supervisor is YELLING over the cubicles to me that I need to hurry up and see my first client. I’m receiving a call from the hospice that my Grandmother had just passed.

In a daze, I go to pick up my older brother so he can take the ride with me to the hospice. During the ride up, I don’t remember saying much to him. Once we arrived to the hospice we sat with my Granny for Hours until Whigham’s came to retrieve her body.

While my brother did the most talking to my grandmother, my mind was busy with all I needed to do in the next week in order to make sure my Grandmother was buried next to my Mother (her only child) as she wished. Needless to say, I never made it to the theater to watch Black Panther.

Fast Forward, I think it was during the pandemic. I finally found the nerve to watch Black Panther. Circa late 2019 or 2020. Instantly falling for M’Baku (Winston Duke). Posting my crush all over IG almost every #MCM with elaborate fantasy story lines as captions.

Legit tagging #WinBae as if I already knew him and like he was really my #Bae.

I had no clue I would get the chance to verbally make acquaintance with #WinBae during the pandemic thanks to an app called Clubhouse and Twitter Spaces.

Stars aligned Doctor Cindy enters my life.

Sis In Love opened the door for creating. And there we built. Fast forward to one night on Twitter Spaces…. Enter Winston Duke!

Me totally becoming a shy ass scary cat upon first conversation. All I could say to the man was Hi. Like seriously y’all I couldn’t get any other words out. Phone on Mute, I'm in my van freaking out! Gassed I'm like speaking with the M'Baku. As Doctor Cindy and Doctor A, made jokes cuz I'm clammed up... I sat on a virtual stage with my MCM. 👆🏾🫠🫶🏾

Fast forward some rooms together with #WinBae, I now became comfortable enough to joke with and speak. He follows me back on Twitter and Clubhouse. I'm gassed and keep the highly inappropriate IG tags rolling out every other Monday.

Then One LATE night, I hope on Clubhouse to see Doctor Cindy has brought Mama C to the party. Y'all already know I was front and center! Introduced by Doctor Cindy, I was honored to be speaking to the mother of two extraordinary persons.

Literally bleaming under Mama C’s wisdom as she spoke to reach of us in the room. With honesty, wisdom, and love, I felt that Motherly love I had been missing since my grandmother passed.

So out of respect to a Queen, Once Mama C started following me on IG, I reserved my inappropriate scripts to my stories, which disappeared in 24 Hours.

Fast forward, 2023 Jordan SZN, Winston sharing with the world, that he had to hit the red carpet of Premiere Night Literally the Week after he lost his mother.

I am in awe of both He and Doctor Cindy's Strength. As they hit the carpet together before flashing lights.

In all do respect M'Baku is My Superman

So I vow to myself, that I will be strong like #WinBae, and come February 1, 2023. I will tuck myself safely upon my Best Friends Couch and cry my eyes red while watching Black Panther 2

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